Purpose

This May will mark my 5 year anniversary of graduating with my BSN and this past February made 4 years of practicing as a RN. I’m still in disbelief that I am an “experienced nurse.” There’s always more to learn and it keeps me on my toes!

A major component in why I chose Nursing was the opportunities. If I want to switch specialties at any time I can. If I want to work 3 days a week or 5 days a week, I can. I can work a desk job or be with patients; work in the hospital or a clinic. Whatever my heart desires, at that time. 

First there was cardiac nursing, which I loved. Now there is Endoscopy procedure nursing, which I also love. Hopefully in the future I will pursue dermatology/cosmetics? My options are endless.

From the moment I graduated until just 6 months ago all these possibilities felt daunting and overwhelming as I was trying to find the “perfect nursing job” for me. I was stressed for years about the next stage of my career and finding my “purpose”. Creating elaborate plan after plan after plan for my career change, but it always felt like I was settling, like something was missing. I realized I was focused on societal pressure and the idea of being prestigious. I was boxing myself in; I didn’t give myself permission to dream bigger.

Looking back, I should’ve been enjoying the moment and trusting God with every ounce of my being. Needless to say, I have learned from that mistake.

Ultimately I believe purpose finds you. Sometimes it’s by taking new risk. Other times it’s by surrounding yourself with new and great people God can use to speak to you or to show you something different than your comfort zone.

I feel at peace these days because I know that every step I take I am still “walking in my purpose.” I’m simply living in the moment and trusting God. Everyday I wake up I have the choice to make a positive difference and be a better person than the day before. I no longer feel that pressure of the next step. I know what is for me is for me, “periodt”.

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